I find myself in a situation, today, right now, in this moment – this moment which both you and I share at different times, yet in both moments the sentiment rings true – where I only know one option. That option is to fight.
I have nothing to lose. Even if you are reading this in a time where my success is beyond what I could have ever imagined for myself. Even if it looks like I am someone who exemplifies the ideals of what one may call a role model. Even if that means you are reading this in a time where it seems I have peaked and there is no higher I could be. Even in that moment. I assure you. I still only have one option: That option is to fight.
Flight is for those who believe security exists outside themself. I am not going to sit here and pretend that I have never flown. I have. However, all the flights I have logged have been in the vain of fight. I’ve flown when the people I fought next to, didn’t see in themselves what I see in them. I was not strong enough a person to carry their weight while they learned how to fight. I flew so that I could lead by example.
Now, did that example pan out? We shall see. I do believe it will. I believe there are some that will come back to fight by my side again. Not because I am the greatest leader. But because not only do I believe I can learn to be a great leader, I know the only reason they were willing to fight by my side in the first place is because they saw something in me that I could not see in myself.
I believe I now possess much of that clarity. Do I possess all of it. Nah. I mean how narcissistic would you need to be to claim you have all answers? I don’t. If I had all the answers, I’m not sure if life would be worth living much longer afterward. You would probably try to tell the world the simple truths and get crucified for it. Maybe the problem is we all want to have all the answers, but we don’t want to go through hell to get them. So, instead, we pretend we have all the answers and posture as kings, when we’re just a bunch of dickheads that don’t know how to love one another for who they are. Setting expectations that cannot be met, because we don’t have the words to accurately articulate and we don’t have the emotional IQ to be vulnerable enough to allow someone to be more wounded than us. So we meet them in a place where their outward expression is first filtered by their internal experience.
When someone is wounded, their external expression can feel like a transfer of energy. That transaction can feel like it is aimed directly at us – as an attack. It takes a lot of understanding to realize that the attack is simply the way the “assailant” processes the experience.
To put it another way: It’s not about you. It’s about them.
You must forgive them. Because, they know not what they do.
Just a thought. Hopefully I am wrong. I really don’t feel like being crucified today. I mean, I’m no god. I’m just a guy that wants the best for people. Do I think I know how to give people what’s best for them? I hope so. I mean everyone thinks they know what’s best for the people they judge… I just hope I have the best solution for the people I love. I have a plan to find out. The best part of all: Even if it fails the people I love will have generated great wealth. And, very few will ever read this post.
If it succeeds?
Well, you read this blog post, didn’t you? 🙂
Thank you for reading.