Tonight I thought for sure I was low energy.
I’m anything but low energy. What I was doing was putting my energy in the wrong places. I’m not sure what spurred this on today. It surely wasn’t there yesterday. Yesterday, I snapped into business mode on a phone call and was happy the remainder of the day.
I talk and write a lot about staying out of your own way. It’s incredibly hard to do when the person you are standing in the way of is yourself.
Aren’t you just being you?
I am not anxiety. But where I was putting my energy was causing it. I had a good day. I was tired from lack of sleep, but it was a good day. There’s a lot to get done. I was set on what my priorities were for the day. The hours ticked by while I fielded phone calls and side-tracked myself from the days tasks.
Which was fine. But, as time passed. I felt the once deadline-less tasks would be a cinch to accomplish. Though the more I looked through my mind at what I could look forward to accomplishing over the coming days, weeks, months. And the things I was nervous about in the next couple months. I get stuck in a clash of excitement and nervousness. Where I can’t tell one from the other. And trying to decide which to focus on I get deflated. It feels like a laziness. I feel a rush of tense relax across the front of my chest, shoulders and down my arms. As if my arms are thrown in the air and fall to the side in defeat. I want to retreat to my chair and meditate on why I am doing what I am doing and how I am doing it. In these moments I may restore my energy, “center” the energy, and focus it on the journey rather than the destinations that may – or may not! – lay on the road ahead.
There are tool that will be useful. But, it’s important to sharpen those tools. Otherwise they fires that hardened them will need to be re-ignited to mend once again.
Author: Jeff Donnelly
Game Designer. In both business and life, the potential is limited by the number of transactions available. Life is like a game. Jeff designs games that allow people to realize their full potential.